The Thought of Freedom
Well, I feel weird. Knowing that my days of freedom are right around the corner, I have been sort of jumbled. I have had ideas stashed away for “when I quit my job” and therefor had more time to devote to the exploration of new things. And now, with the opportunity so close, I’ve found myself feeling pulled in multiple directions at once.
As much as I’m excited to pursue new things, I feel like at first I need to just…..adjust. I can’t imagine how it’s going to feel waking up and not going to work. I mean, I’ve basically been doing that 5 days a week since I was 15. (That sounds depressing.) It’s really possible this new-found freedom is going to throw me out of wack for a bit. I definitely want to concentrate on developing a new groove with my usual routine before getting all experimental and test driving some new ideas.
For the most part, I feel really excited to start this new adventure. But I have to admit there are moments when I forget the excitement and the fear sets in. I have been dreaming this for so long and now that there is no turning back, I’m seriously wrapping my head around my new responsibilities. The thought of not having steady income, not having a reliable job to depend on….it’s a scary thing. But it could also be the best decision I have ever made. Who knows?
I just want to thank you guys again. The response I got on this blog post was so uplifting and it really has helped to keep my nerves at bay. Now whenever I have a freak out moment I can go back over your comments to remind myself I’m not alone in this. For all the comments, tweets, card orders, e-mails, ad space purchases……..Thank you. :] xo JA